Well. Here I am Monday morning and I still feel like crap. Still having pain. Going to get an ultrasound this afternoon to check the gallbladder. If it's not that, will have to consider actually seeing a doctor. I hate that. What they say about Doctors being the worst patients is absolutely true. But, I can't deal with this pain anymore.
I went over my calories yesterday, mainly because I was drinking sprite. But, water made me throw up. Coke zero made me throw up. Diet DP made me throw up. What to do? I don't know. This morning I can't have anything to eat or drink before the ultrasound. No coffee for me means I'm extra grumpy.
I didn't sleep well last night up for various reasons, one being the pain. The other being the damned dog. Why is it that nights you are so tired they conspire against you? So I saw 12:20am, 1:30am, 1:50am, 2:30am, 4:20am on the clock before my 5:35am wake up. Yawn. I'm too old for that crap.
I am bummed because my brain wants to work out and eat right, but my body won't cooperate. I ate 3 bites of a salad yesterday and lost it. So after that it was toast, crackers and the poached eggs for dinner. Not exactly a balanced diet. I'm so frustrated with this set back. Scale is up a pound, but likely due to not enough water. I just can't right now.
I feel like my goal is at the end of one of those trick hallways from the Twilight Zone where the faster you run toward it, the farther it drifts away. I know that's melodramatic, but the clock is ticking and I want, no, I NEED to get this weight off. I don't know if I'll be able to make TKD class tomorrow. I just don't know if I can do it. We'll see.
Sorry I'm not very uplifting OR inspiring today, but I have one favor to ask. Since I can't kick ass on the exercise and diet front today, I'm trusting all my blogosphere peeps to do it for me. If I can't, knowing you can and are doing it makes me feel a little better. So....promise you'll put forth your best effort today, for me?
I'll keep you posted on the ultrasound. Just think...If I have to have surgery I could post the video. I bet no other blogger has done such a thing. Hee hee. That would be hilarious. I'm holding you to that promise! Let me know how today rolls for you. Caio!