Good Morning ALL!
Well, yesterday was a great day. Any day where you only work 1/2 is a great day, right? So we had our Christmas Party for work and gift exchange. It was a night lunch. I had a fabulous greek salad, mostly veggies with 4 olives and very little dressing. Along with that I had a chicken shish-k-bob which had veggies and 3 small chunks of chicken and 1/2 a pita. I drank a vanilla vodka w/ diet coke and my calories at lunch were 459. As a surprise we let the employees have the rest of the day off early so they could shop since it was payday.
I left work and went to the mall. Three hours of shopping, just me and 5 million others. But, since I'm almost done with Christmas it was a leisurely stroll and by stroll I mean a LOT of walking. Shoulda worn different shoes. I had my cute boots with the heels on and ouch my feet and legs were cramping by the time I got home. I had a great time. Picked up a few things for myself. Two pairs of too cute shoes. I'll take pics and share for my fellow Shoe connoisseurs. I KNOW you're out there.
Here's where the weird part happened.
So I go to Nordstrom's because I have a gift certificate left from last year. Thought I'd by a few new clothes. I go in and head to the Woman's department where I've always shopped. I look at the sales rack. There are litterally no clothes that will fit me except 1 pair of size 14 jeans in a weird purple color. That's a NO. I look at the non-sale racks. That's cute-2x. Oh I like that sweater-3x. Then- 2x, 1x, 3x, 24, 22, 20....I realize I probably shouldn't even be in this section anymore. Then I realize I have absolutely NO idea where I'm supposed to shop. I mean, where are the clothes for normal people?
And by normal I mean, size 14 for 40yr old women, not the 16 yr old teenies. So I wander around and this sales lady comes up to me and she's like, "Can I help you find something, you look lost." And I say, "I think I am." I explained my issue and she directed me to an area where there were some cute things. I looked and shopped and literally everything seemed too small to me, even though they were my size. I tried some stuff on I liked ok, but I felt so weird I gave up. I did find a cute leather jacket in a 0X. WTF is a 0X? But it fits and it was less than 50 bucks.
Then I went to look at shoes. Shoes should be safe, right? So the sales guy, luckily a very styled gay dude (because they ALWAYS help you find the best shoes), comes up and asks if I need help. I tell him I'm looking for some cute black heels or just something funky and fun. He asks my size, I tell him, "a 8 1/2-9". He says, "Oh Honey, you're tiny. That's way too big." WTF? Tiny? WTF? So he brings out these 8s and 7 and 1/2s. WTF? They fit, but as it turned out I didn't like them on me. Maybe it was my being completely freaked out by not knowing myself anymore. I did end up with 2 pair of shoes at Dillard's, one is an 8, one an 8 and 1/2, but sales chick said those run small. (???)
The entire experience has me weired out and happy at the same time. THEN this morning I opened a pakage from Lane Bryant and I had ordered these cute gray cargo pants from them on clearance in a size 14. I put them on and thought, "Huh. I like them a lot, but are they too big?" The more the day wears on I realize they ARE too big, even for baggy cargo pants. Don't get me wrong. It's awesome. But it is also disconcerting to FEEL like I am fatter than I actually am. To be WEARING a SIZE 14 that seems REALLY small compared to what I'm used to and THEY ARE TOO BIG. (I was going to post a pic, but it was icky.)
Does anyone else understand what I'm saying? I mean it is super exciting and I am really proud and happy. But, I feel so strange. I have no idea where to go buy clothes now. I need to re-measure. It's been about a month. I cannot believe it since I haven't lost that many more pounds.(which is an entirely different subject I'll bitch about later.)
SSDDDYYSSDDS or whatever the hell Allan's challenge is now is going fine although the I did go over by 171 cals yesterday. Thank you vodka. But, for the week I'm ok. Tonight I am getting a datenight with hubbie for our anniversary. That means SALAD and very little cals for lunch today so I can save up for tonight. Fluids are A-OK and on target. Scale says I'm down 1 pound. I was shocked to see in black and white on his blog yesterday that I can reach my goal by May. That's only 5 months away and even if it takes DOUBLE that, I'll be at goal by this time next year. Gasp. Grin.
Last week people told me I need to set new goals since I've pretty much done them all except the weight. So I'm adding the goal of a morning cardio session 5 days a week from now till the end of the challenge. I'm still working on the weight goal of 199 and I am still what feels like a lot, but is only 5 pounds away.
So, I hope everyone enjoys their weekend and BE GOOD! I mean it! And, let me know if your new size freaks anyone else out or am I just in need of "help"?
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