I had a particularly horrible day yesterday. Not my diet, not my exercise....just my life. It ended with a particularly horrible evening and a fight with my husband so it pretty much sucked. Being a doctor is hard sometimes. Of course I cannot discuss particulars, but suffice it to say I had to give someone very, very bad news yesterday. It's always hard, but this was REALLY hard. The office is still really busy. We are still understadffed, but luckily we have 2 new hires starting soon. All of that together made yesterday horrible.
I got up yesterday and worked out on my bike and did 2 sets of weights for my arms. Then breakfast and all like usual. Of course I ran late in the office.....over and HOUR...which is NOT usual for my office and was EXTREMELY frustrating for me and I'm sure my patients. The lateness meant I didn't have time for TKD class, which always makes me grumpy anyway. I ended up working through lunch and eating very little. I hadn't packed lunch, just snacks. I had some grapes and carrots with 2 tbsp hummus. To be honest that was enough. For once I was stressed and not hungry. It's weird how over time my impulse to eat has changed. In the past I would have been stuffing myself or at least running out to drive thru somewhere and eat alone in my car for lunch. I just don't do that anymore.
Anyway, the afternoon in the office was worse than the morning and by the end of the day I'd had enough. I was irritated with one staff member and ended up kinda yelling at her, something I never do. But, dang it, sometimes it is just warranted. I'm usually the firm one, but not a yeller and I'm very supportive of my staff, but if you're wrong, you're wrong.
I ran late again in the evening, so I ended up leaving without finishing my work. I was NOT missing another TKD class. By then the storm from had moved in and it was pouring out, which I don't mind at all except traffic is worse and I ALWAYS get a migraine when it rains.Here I am driving across town with a migraine in the rain and having eaten very little lunch. Luckily I had been drinking my water and I had an apple I ate on the way to class.
Once I was in class I started to relax. I just focused on the moves and doing them right. I did have some trouble with my breathing as I always do when it rains, but I made it through class without too much trouble. Afterward the kids and I headed home, got drenched getting to the car and made it home just fine. Chaos ensued as usual. I didn't get any of my work finished which means I started today behind and I hate that. BUT, I was too tired. I also didn't get to see the State of the Union Address, but I like to watch it later anyway. The constant standing and clapping and such just gets on my NERVES. I like to watch it recorded so I can fast forward when needed.
Anyhoo.......food yesterday was great. I had a small serving of pasta for dinner which isn't often for me. I also had a big salad. I ended up with 1300 calories because I ate a little more at breakfast than usual, I had a banana. I worked out twice so I still had over 500 cal deficit. Fitbit says I walked 8500 steps.
Last night there were tons of storms here and lots of rain. The pond near our house is WAY out of it's banks. Driving to work was a real challenge. I swear people lose their minds when it rains and they forget how to drive. I thought I was going to have to get out of my car and physically remove a woman who would NOT move out of the exit so I was STUCK. She kept edging up like she thought I was trying to cut in the carpool line but I'd ALREADY dropped off my kids and I just wanted OUT. What the heck is wrong with people?? I honked THREE times and she just looked at me like she couldn't figure out what my problem was! So so so rude!
Irritated and wet I arrived at work, LATE because of traffic. Clearly I was NOT catching up this morning. I had already gotten up at 5:20am to fix breakfast for my hubby, pack his lunch and get upstairs to ride my bike. I did half an hour and then I did the video that came with my new foam roller. I'm sore a lot in my hips with all the kicking and I've been meaning to get one for a while. I got one and let me say that it HURTS, but I'm hoping it will help my hamstrings and iliotibial band. So overall I did 45minutes of exercise. I had planned a trip to the gym, but I am sore AND I had some errands to run so I didn't go to the gym. For a moment I felt guilty and then I remembered that I'd already worked out once today. To assuage my guilt I parked a LONG LONG way from the two places I went.
One was Lane Bryant and in general I don't shop there anymore. I can't wear most of the stuff, but their bras are great and I just HAD to get some. I realized last week that I have only 2 bras that fit that are NOT exercise bras. I've bought several of them and I wear them if I have on scrubs. But under real clothes they look weird sometimes. The two I have are WORN OUT. I haven't bought any in ages. Plus I haven't bought a bra anywhere but Lane Bryant in ages.....well maybe since college....other than the running store. So now I have several new ones and some new undies. I can go home tonight and toss this scragly stringy stretched out thing away!
I weighed today and the scale is down and I'm happy. I'm under 200 again. I never want to see it again! I've got to maintain this loss through the weekend! And speaking of the weekend.....Hubby and I are getting another date this weekend! Craig Ferguson is in town. Well...he's up in Oklahoma at a casino. We're going up Saturday for his show and spending the night. I'm so excited because he is so funny. But just to warn you....the world might be in danger.....two weeks in a row for a date night?? Just warning you that the zombie apocalypse could be coming any day. In order to maintain this loss I'll have to avoid the alcohol and the buffet there and I think I can do both.
But, first I have to make it to the weekend and I'm counting hours. Tonight is the showcase for the high school where we have to take son to see all the clubs and activities and get his schedule ready for net year and I'm not ready. I'm not I'm not I'm not I'm not. He's such an awesome kid and we laugh all the time and have so much fun I cannot stomach the idea of him being gone! Of course I have time and I'll enjoy what I have and blah blah blah. I'll think about that tomorrow....
So that's it for now. I really have to focus on work now. Do any of you use a foam roller? Do you think it helps? As I sit here right now I am realizing that my butt and hamstrings are not sore and my hips haven't ached today. That's very exciting considering I worked out AND had TKD yesterday and the hard workout Monday with the trainer. Maybe there is something to it. I can say it isn't really easy as you have to kind of hold yourself up and roll around, but I liked it. I wish I'd bought a longer one though. I may have to get another.
Hope you all are staying on track! Keep focused on the goal and keep going!
This blog is an accounting of my personal journey to find fitness. All the content on this blog should be read as a biographical piece of literature, not a medical resource. I am a physician, but I am in no way giving medical advice or establishing doctor patient relationships with my readers. I am simply keeping a diary. If you are starting a diet or exercise program or require medical evaluation or advice, please see your own family physician.