Another Fabulous Day! I'm SO HAPPY and EVERYTHING is GOOD!
Trying too hard? I'll tone it down a bit. Actually I had a really good day. Second day in a row and I forced myself to get up and get on the stationary bike. I'm really trying to get back to the routine I had a few months ago where I was super motivated and losing weight easily. I was exercising with cardio and some core training pretty much every day, even on days I did the gym so that I got 2 workouts many days. I looked back at my old exercise journal I kept in my exercise room and I realized how much more I was doing then.
I won't lie it's kicking my butt since late last week when I started this, but I remember how great I felt after I adjusted to it and so I know if I hang in there I will feel better. I am super sore from the trainer yesterday. Damn you squats and lunges. But, I know how good they are for me so I actually revel in the glow of post exercise pain. Someone pass the ibuprofen!
I made it to TKD class today. Holy achy abs and pects, batman! After the extra abs and such yesterday I am sore. I didn't realize it until I did the crunches in class. Of course today my instructor decided to do extra. Naturally. Okey Dokey. So we did 150. AND I was able to get up afterward! Then we did push ups and the 1 minute interval I did with push ups yesterday came back like a flash of lightening and I barely got the 15 for today done, BUT I did do them so...victory! We did a ton of kicking drills and jumping and punching and forms and all that stuff and let me tell you EVERYONE in that class was whipped and sweaty, not just me! It felt great in a sweaty slimey and I survived the horror kind of way.
Home after for shower and then lunch. I was starved, but I maintained control which was excellent considering how hungry I was and that I came home to homemade banana bread fresh out of the oven. I did not partake of that pleasure, that's for the kids for after school. I did have a boiled egg and some watermelon along with some red peppers and hummus and a turkey sandwich. Total at lunch was 390cal. and it was awesome. It amazes me how much I totally love good healthy food now.
I'm tired now and soon have to head out to pick up the kids at TKD. It's the nightly hand off from Nanny and my second shift starts. I always feel like I can't get everything done. Sigh. Am I the only one who feels this way? I think of the closets that need cleaning and the plants that need planting and the mulch that needs spreading and the weeds that need pulling and the kids that need bathing and the homework that needs supervising and the endless list of stuff I need to do and I just feel less than adequate sometimes.
But then I think of all I DO accomplish in a day and feel pretty good. I see the kids and that they are happy and healthy and I count my blessings. When will I figure out that I'm never going to be that perfect woman I have in my head? And what's so great about her anyway? She may have her to do list done, but is she happy? Letting go of these pre-conceived notions of perfect wife, mother and career women would serve me well, I think. I'm still learning how to do that. Maybe I just need to work on visualizing how I want MY life to be and not what I think it's supposed to be like?
I'm trying to focus on positive things and gratitude. This is my new "project" this week. I'm really trying to move on from the recent sadness I've been dealing with. It's so easy to get wrapped up in the things we don't have, can't do or do wrong that we forget all the wonderful things we are and have. I'm notoriously bad for that. Umm........I mean.........I'm so proud of myself for recognizing my weaknesses and being willing to change them. I am grateful that I have made so much progress in the last year, inside and out! I look forward to seeing where all these positive changes will take me. It's about so much more than the scale for me!
What about you? Do you have to practice being positive and grateful or does it just come naturally to you? How do you deal with the demands you put on yourself and your expectations? Do you ever feel overwhelmed by them? And if you do, how do you handle it? What are some ways you are able to stay positive in your attitude?
This blog is an accounting of my personal journey to find fitness. All the content on this blog should be read as a biographical piece of literature, not a medical resource. I am a physician, but I am in no way giving medical advice or establishing doctor patient relationships with my readers. I am simply keeping a diary. If you are starting a diet or exercise program or require medical evaluation or advice, please see your own family physician.