So home at lunch I went. I rode 7 miles on the stationary. I did 50 push ups-20 "real" and 30 girlie ones. I did 50 crunches, 40 reverse crunches, 60 bridge, and 2-30sec planks. I felt great after. Even my belly. I drank and drank and drank today. I have already consumed 100oz water and I will get another 32oz on the way home from work in a minute and likely at least another 1/2-1 with and after dinner. Yeah pee!
After I had 3.5 oz of pork chop left over w/ a small salad and watermelon for 282 cal and an apple for snack. You can rest assured that I will enter all my food and add it before I eat it tonight so I don't go over my calories again.
I plan to go home to my family and watch Toy Story 3 on DVD and eat dinner. I don't know what we're having yet. Then tomorrow there's a lot house stuff, football and exercise to do. I also have to plan my kids bday parties so I'm busy busy. I'll post tomorrow sometime while I watch the games. There are so many good ones for this week.
OU play TX A&M, I think we'll win that. I'm looking forward to the TCU v Utah game. Should be a good one. Alabama v LSU will be a good game. Who would've thought TX v K-State would be so irrelevant? I like it. The NFL is a mess with my Cowboys in the toilet. I keep watching just so I can laugh at how bad it gets. Is this how the Browns fans felt all that time? Who knew the Raiders vs Kansas City would be a better game to watch than Dallas at Green Bay. Whatev. I'll be watching my Boys. No fair weather fan here. And the Vikes, my other team. Favre, Ohhhhhh Favre. What body part will you destroy this week? And the Redskins drama. Who can stop watching?
How do you know when you are a football addict? When you are watching Rutgers v South Florida on a Wednesday night. Yep. I was. Just mad I missed most of the Gtech vs Vtech last night. Kids...they have this weird thing about needing attention and food and bathing. GEEZ! But even I can't watch Central Mich vs Western Mich. There is a limit. I think I found it. Ha ha ha.
Enjoy your Friday. Drink your water! How much did you get in? What workout did you do today? And what sports will you be watching this weekend?
Adios.
Friday, November 5, 2010
I'm an Idiot and Hot 100 update.
Well. I'm an idiot. Officially. Yesterday I went over my DDDY challenge calories by 200cal. Why? Because I made a conscious choice to eat more? Because I decided to have a little extra? No. Because I'm a math idiot. I just miscalculated how many calories I had left and ate too much. UGH. But, I did drink 5 32oz glasses of water. I am so frustrated with myself. But, I will persevere. Plus I am under the challenge calorie count over all for the week.
As a side note I will tell you that math is REALLY not my thing. It takes effort for me. I should know better than to rely on my brain when a perfectly reliable calculator is nearby. Sometimes I'm a dumbass.
The scale however has not moved and I'm started to be irritated, grrr. Maybe it's my body adjusting to all the extra water. I don't know. But, I came to work fasting today and had all my labs drawn, including my thyroid. I've had problems off and on before, especially when I was trying to get pregnant the second time. So, I'm wondering if it is playing a role in my scale not budging.
That being said, I'll move on to my Hot 100 goals:
1) To be 199 pounds, well, I'm 10 pounds from it. If I can get the scale moving and stay on track with Allan's challenge it should be totally doable.
2) To be size 12: we'll see. I've restarted on the exercise and next week I'll get back to TKD and training harder. I haven't measured lately. I'm wondering if this is unrealistic. Maybe it should be to be a size 14 in a regular store?
3) To get my yellow belt in TKD: Finally I'm able to start back on Tuesday.
4) Run a 5K: Well I'm all signed up for my first one on the 14th. We'll see how much of it I can run. Then maybe in the next 6 weeks I can continue to build my running back up and meet the goal of being to run the whole 3 miles.
I still haven't gotten my iphone thingy straightened out. It works so I'll get it figured out some day. Sigh.
Hope you all have a great day. I'm off to workout at home. This weekend, I'll be running at the park, I hope, AND getting my gym bag re-packed so I can make my triumphant return to the gym next week. Yeah!
Why is getting BACK in the grove of exercise seem to be so much harder than starting the first time was? Likely it's just attitude. I guess. Today I'll bike and stretch and do my core training. Back to work body, whether you like it or not. Actually, my body LOVES it, it's that stupid corner of my brain that complains. TOO BAD SO SAD. MOVE IT!
Ciao!
As a side note I will tell you that math is REALLY not my thing. It takes effort for me. I should know better than to rely on my brain when a perfectly reliable calculator is nearby. Sometimes I'm a dumbass.
The scale however has not moved and I'm started to be irritated, grrr. Maybe it's my body adjusting to all the extra water. I don't know. But, I came to work fasting today and had all my labs drawn, including my thyroid. I've had problems off and on before, especially when I was trying to get pregnant the second time. So, I'm wondering if it is playing a role in my scale not budging.
That being said, I'll move on to my Hot 100 goals:
1) To be 199 pounds, well, I'm 10 pounds from it. If I can get the scale moving and stay on track with Allan's challenge it should be totally doable.
2) To be size 12: we'll see. I've restarted on the exercise and next week I'll get back to TKD and training harder. I haven't measured lately. I'm wondering if this is unrealistic. Maybe it should be to be a size 14 in a regular store?
3) To get my yellow belt in TKD: Finally I'm able to start back on Tuesday.
4) Run a 5K: Well I'm all signed up for my first one on the 14th. We'll see how much of it I can run. Then maybe in the next 6 weeks I can continue to build my running back up and meet the goal of being to run the whole 3 miles.
I still haven't gotten my iphone thingy straightened out. It works so I'll get it figured out some day. Sigh.
Hope you all have a great day. I'm off to workout at home. This weekend, I'll be running at the park, I hope, AND getting my gym bag re-packed so I can make my triumphant return to the gym next week. Yeah!
Why is getting BACK in the grove of exercise seem to be so much harder than starting the first time was? Likely it's just attitude. I guess. Today I'll bike and stretch and do my core training. Back to work body, whether you like it or not. Actually, my body LOVES it, it's that stupid corner of my brain that complains. TOO BAD SO SAD. MOVE IT!
Ciao!
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Day 136 and Word of the Week.
I am having a fabulous week except for the trials and tribulations of owning an iPhone. I love love love it, but OMG when you have problems it is a super de duper pain. I can't get the damn thing to sync right. I am a pretty computer literate person and I've searched the support site and chat rooms. I've tried all that shit. I can't get it to back up or update or even restore. AHHH! So, I'm going to call my tech dude and have him check some stuff out on my laptop and THEN I'll call apple support. I think it is a conspiracy where they figure if they make it hard enough, you'll give up and just go buy a new phone. Sigh.
So I've noticed all these blogs having words of the day or week or whatever. My word is PISSY. That's right. I am pissy about my phone, but that's not the meaning I'm referring to. I am drinking so much water right now. I've been drinking a lot all along, but I am making an effort to drink more. I am trying to get ready for Allan's new challenge. I have to say that I've been drinking a minimum of 64 ounces a day since March when I started my get fit life change. Even at this level, I find myself feeling thirsty. So now I am on a mission to see how much water it takes until I don't feel thirsty. Yesterday I drank 4-32ounce glasses. I've found I like it cold and I drink it best and fastest with a straw. I chug at least 1/2 the glass right after the fresh fill up, then the other half in the next 1-2 hours. Today I've had 64 ounces and it is just now noon. I'm going to try for 5 glasses a day OR until I am not thirsty.
I can tell you I'm not hungry. For breakfast I had my 12ounces of coffee w/ light powder creamer and splenda. I had a small slice of the home made banana bread Nanny made yesterday-whole wheat flour, no sugar, no oil (fat free yogurt instead). Very healthy stuff. I'd planned a yoplait yogurt with it, but I drank my water, wasn't hungry and I just realized I left the damn thing sitting on my desk for the last 3 hours. Now it's warm. Yuck.
I don't know what I'm having for lunch yet. I'm not hungry. At all. I'm planning on going home to exercise at lunch. I have to see if I can touch base with Geek Dude, so that may have to wait until later. I've got to get back in the habit of morning workouts. I just do better that way. AND when I workout every morning, I can still do an extra at lunch so some days I get 2 in. It's what I did prior to my surgery so I'm working back up to it.
I was in Target this am picking up some canned skim milk for one of Tami's recipes. I walked down the baking aisle. Boxes of brownies, cookie mix, cake mixes, those warm in the microwave desserts when flying by. You know what? I looked at them and had absolutely no desire. I thought, "Huh that one looks good, " but I had none of the pulling, out of control urge to shove one in my basket that I used to feel. Is this what "normal" people feel? I used to see a food on TV or in the store or heck, I might just think of a food and I would have an urge, sometimes an overwhelming urge to eat it. I might not be able to get the thought of whatever that food was out of my head until I gave in and ate it. I haven't felt that in so long.
And then I got to thinking about the last meal I had in a restaurant. I could not remember it. Not take out, not drive thru. We have been eating at home pretty much all the time. That made me feel really good. Of course I have help with Nanny. We work as a team. Most nights she starts dinner and I finish, but the weekends are mine. The last time I ate a meal out was the last OU game October 16th. Can you believe that? And the kids haven't had fast food except once in the last MONTH. We went to sonic and I got them a hot dog and slushie last weekend when I was down and not feeling well. I got my diet cherry limeade. Very tasty.
That made me feel really good that without a goal to avoid eating out, we just did naturally because we are trying to be healthier. In fact, I don't really even enjoy eating out that much anymore. Fast food is OUT. There are very few things I will eat at fast food anymore. It just tastes like crap. And eating in a restaurant with 3 kids is not ideal to say the least. It's just so much nicer to come home, sit at the dinner table, no TV on and talk as a family. It just really feels nice. And the kids are thriving right now. I was looking at my son, he has really slimmed down with football and watching his food. He looks so cute and he's growing up so fast. His 13th bday is 2 weeks away. Sigh.
So one of my patients I've known forever saw me today and realized how much weight I've lost. She was stunned. She had the lap band about 1 year ago, maybe longer and never really lost much weight. She got really sick and had to have the thing drained. I wear scrubs a lot in the office. My scrubs are HUGE on me. And with the lab coat, you don't notice as much. Today I have on "real" clothes and I was walking down the hall and she stopped in her tracks when she saw me. She of course asked THE question. What are you doing? How did you lose it? I told her I'm counting my calories and exercising. She was like, "Wow, I guess I better get off my duff." I told her she could do it with or without the band. Maybe she will. I hope so.
Have a fabulous Thursday everyone!
So I've noticed all these blogs having words of the day or week or whatever. My word is PISSY. That's right. I am pissy about my phone, but that's not the meaning I'm referring to. I am drinking so much water right now. I've been drinking a lot all along, but I am making an effort to drink more. I am trying to get ready for Allan's new challenge. I have to say that I've been drinking a minimum of 64 ounces a day since March when I started my get fit life change. Even at this level, I find myself feeling thirsty. So now I am on a mission to see how much water it takes until I don't feel thirsty. Yesterday I drank 4-32ounce glasses. I've found I like it cold and I drink it best and fastest with a straw. I chug at least 1/2 the glass right after the fresh fill up, then the other half in the next 1-2 hours. Today I've had 64 ounces and it is just now noon. I'm going to try for 5 glasses a day OR until I am not thirsty.
I can tell you I'm not hungry. For breakfast I had my 12ounces of coffee w/ light powder creamer and splenda. I had a small slice of the home made banana bread Nanny made yesterday-whole wheat flour, no sugar, no oil (fat free yogurt instead). Very healthy stuff. I'd planned a yoplait yogurt with it, but I drank my water, wasn't hungry and I just realized I left the damn thing sitting on my desk for the last 3 hours. Now it's warm. Yuck.
I don't know what I'm having for lunch yet. I'm not hungry. At all. I'm planning on going home to exercise at lunch. I have to see if I can touch base with Geek Dude, so that may have to wait until later. I've got to get back in the habit of morning workouts. I just do better that way. AND when I workout every morning, I can still do an extra at lunch so some days I get 2 in. It's what I did prior to my surgery so I'm working back up to it.
I was in Target this am picking up some canned skim milk for one of Tami's recipes. I walked down the baking aisle. Boxes of brownies, cookie mix, cake mixes, those warm in the microwave desserts when flying by. You know what? I looked at them and had absolutely no desire. I thought, "Huh that one looks good, " but I had none of the pulling, out of control urge to shove one in my basket that I used to feel. Is this what "normal" people feel? I used to see a food on TV or in the store or heck, I might just think of a food and I would have an urge, sometimes an overwhelming urge to eat it. I might not be able to get the thought of whatever that food was out of my head until I gave in and ate it. I haven't felt that in so long.
And then I got to thinking about the last meal I had in a restaurant. I could not remember it. Not take out, not drive thru. We have been eating at home pretty much all the time. That made me feel really good. Of course I have help with Nanny. We work as a team. Most nights she starts dinner and I finish, but the weekends are mine. The last time I ate a meal out was the last OU game October 16th. Can you believe that? And the kids haven't had fast food except once in the last MONTH. We went to sonic and I got them a hot dog and slushie last weekend when I was down and not feeling well. I got my diet cherry limeade. Very tasty.
That made me feel really good that without a goal to avoid eating out, we just did naturally because we are trying to be healthier. In fact, I don't really even enjoy eating out that much anymore. Fast food is OUT. There are very few things I will eat at fast food anymore. It just tastes like crap. And eating in a restaurant with 3 kids is not ideal to say the least. It's just so much nicer to come home, sit at the dinner table, no TV on and talk as a family. It just really feels nice. And the kids are thriving right now. I was looking at my son, he has really slimmed down with football and watching his food. He looks so cute and he's growing up so fast. His 13th bday is 2 weeks away. Sigh.
So one of my patients I've known forever saw me today and realized how much weight I've lost. She was stunned. She had the lap band about 1 year ago, maybe longer and never really lost much weight. She got really sick and had to have the thing drained. I wear scrubs a lot in the office. My scrubs are HUGE on me. And with the lab coat, you don't notice as much. Today I have on "real" clothes and I was walking down the hall and she stopped in her tracks when she saw me. She of course asked THE question. What are you doing? How did you lose it? I told her I'm counting my calories and exercising. She was like, "Wow, I guess I better get off my duff." I told her she could do it with or without the band. Maybe she will. I hope so.
Have a fabulous Thursday everyone!
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Day 135. And It happened
I was thinking today. Yes. I do occasionally think. A lot of people use the day of their blog as their title. It got me wondering. What day am I? Well, I went back from my first post and figured out today is day 135. At first I was bummed by the fact I haven't lost more weight. But then I did the math.
135 days is approximately 19 weeks. Subtract 8 weeks for being sick and then surgery recovering and 1 week for vacation. That leaves 10 weeks. In that time I've lost 21 pounds. Avg loss 2.1 pounds a week. Not bad really. My total loss is now 41 pounds. I still have a long way to go. But, I am proud. This is the most weight I've ever lost at one time.
Well. It happened.
What you ask? I have read on blogs about people being sabotaged by well meaning people telling them they don't need to lose more weight. Well. Yesterday one of my drug reps who is also sort of a friend told me how great I looked. She said I was the "incredible shrinking woman". She asked how much I'd lost. Then she asked how much more I want to lose. I told her 60-70 pounds. Which is true. At 5'1" at BMI of 25 is just under 130 pounds. She looked at me like I was crazy. She said, "There is NO WAY you need to lose that much more weight. NO WAY. You'll be tiny."
Now this is from a petite woman, about my height, who used a body bug to lose the 30 pounds she gained with her pregnancy. She can't be bigger than a size six, but I'm betting a 4. I am big. Is it because they are used to me being big? Even my BFF was surprised by the fact that I was 250 in March. I've been higher than that. My highest weight I remember was 264. That was the weight I was the day I found out I was pregnant with daughter #1. That's why I remember it. Is it because for her 30 pounds was a lot. So to imagine someone needing to loose over a hundred pounds is outside her realm of understanding? Or is it because she thinks I look fine the way I am and can't imagine me losing that much weight? I mean, essentially I'll be her size. Huh.
Either way I wasn't sure how to react to it. I thanked her for being concerned, but assured her that I do have that much weight on me to get to normal BMI. I told her I wasn't exactly sure yet of my goal weight because I still have a lot to lose and I'll know more when I get there. But, I know what I need to be for that magic BMI number. I don't think she meant any harm in her comments. She ended the conversation telling me I was doing great and that she was in awe of how well I'm doing. But, part of me got pissed.
I mean, I got suspicious. Is she blowing smoke up my ass? I mean, anyone can look at me and tell I'm still very fat. After all, she is essentially a salesperson trying to sell me something. Or is she trying to be nice and not agree with me about how overly obese I actually am? Maybe it has more to do with me and how I feel, but 209lbs on 5'1" is easy to see you need to lose weight.
I'm not sure why this annoyed me. Maybe because I don't like talking about this subject, especially to people who've always been thin. No offense to anyone reading this who was actually thin at one point, but you don't know how your body image suffers as a fat kid growing up, being fat forever. It's different than people who were at some point in their life "normal" weight. You feel like an outsider looking in. All. The. Time. A failure at being well.."normal". There is a hopelessness that you feel when you try and fail and try and fail and fail and fail and fail. Anyway, I certainly did not expect to run into this subject so soon.
Have any of you had this happen? How did you feel? How did you handle it?
Today was super great food wise. I came home and had lobster ravioli for dinner with salad, green beans and 2 small pieces of bruschetta. Total for dinner was 681. The ravioli had only 240cal for 5 pieces. The package said 1 cup. How the hell do you measure a cup of ravioli when they won't fit in the damn cup? Label makes make me want to stab them. Luckily it had a weight also, 100gram, so I used my handy scale. 5 pieces. Plenty of yummy and I'm stuffed. Total calories for today=1295 Total water 128oz. Total trips to the BR 9,547 or somewhere in that vicinity. Allan has me so in suspense about PHASE TWO of his challenge. I can hardly weight. Hope I can sleep tonight.
135 days is approximately 19 weeks. Subtract 8 weeks for being sick and then surgery recovering and 1 week for vacation. That leaves 10 weeks. In that time I've lost 21 pounds. Avg loss 2.1 pounds a week. Not bad really. My total loss is now 41 pounds. I still have a long way to go. But, I am proud. This is the most weight I've ever lost at one time.
Well. It happened.
What you ask? I have read on blogs about people being sabotaged by well meaning people telling them they don't need to lose more weight. Well. Yesterday one of my drug reps who is also sort of a friend told me how great I looked. She said I was the "incredible shrinking woman". She asked how much I'd lost. Then she asked how much more I want to lose. I told her 60-70 pounds. Which is true. At 5'1" at BMI of 25 is just under 130 pounds. She looked at me like I was crazy. She said, "There is NO WAY you need to lose that much more weight. NO WAY. You'll be tiny."
Now this is from a petite woman, about my height, who used a body bug to lose the 30 pounds she gained with her pregnancy. She can't be bigger than a size six, but I'm betting a 4. I am big. Is it because they are used to me being big? Even my BFF was surprised by the fact that I was 250 in March. I've been higher than that. My highest weight I remember was 264. That was the weight I was the day I found out I was pregnant with daughter #1. That's why I remember it. Is it because for her 30 pounds was a lot. So to imagine someone needing to loose over a hundred pounds is outside her realm of understanding? Or is it because she thinks I look fine the way I am and can't imagine me losing that much weight? I mean, essentially I'll be her size. Huh.
Either way I wasn't sure how to react to it. I thanked her for being concerned, but assured her that I do have that much weight on me to get to normal BMI. I told her I wasn't exactly sure yet of my goal weight because I still have a lot to lose and I'll know more when I get there. But, I know what I need to be for that magic BMI number. I don't think she meant any harm in her comments. She ended the conversation telling me I was doing great and that she was in awe of how well I'm doing. But, part of me got pissed.
I mean, I got suspicious. Is she blowing smoke up my ass? I mean, anyone can look at me and tell I'm still very fat. After all, she is essentially a salesperson trying to sell me something. Or is she trying to be nice and not agree with me about how overly obese I actually am? Maybe it has more to do with me and how I feel, but 209lbs on 5'1" is easy to see you need to lose weight.
I'm not sure why this annoyed me. Maybe because I don't like talking about this subject, especially to people who've always been thin. No offense to anyone reading this who was actually thin at one point, but you don't know how your body image suffers as a fat kid growing up, being fat forever. It's different than people who were at some point in their life "normal" weight. You feel like an outsider looking in. All. The. Time. A failure at being well.."normal". There is a hopelessness that you feel when you try and fail and try and fail and fail and fail and fail. Anyway, I certainly did not expect to run into this subject so soon.
Have any of you had this happen? How did you feel? How did you handle it?
Today was super great food wise. I came home and had lobster ravioli for dinner with salad, green beans and 2 small pieces of bruschetta. Total for dinner was 681. The ravioli had only 240cal for 5 pieces. The package said 1 cup. How the hell do you measure a cup of ravioli when they won't fit in the damn cup? Label makes make me want to stab them. Luckily it had a weight also, 100gram, so I used my handy scale. 5 pieces. Plenty of yummy and I'm stuffed. Total calories for today=1295 Total water 128oz. Total trips to the BR 9,547 or somewhere in that vicinity. Allan has me so in suspense about PHASE TWO of his challenge. I can hardly weight. Hope I can sleep tonight.
10 Simple Things and A few questions....
Today is great. I am having a super week. Things are looking up. Today I have had yogurt and a pear for breakfast, the last bowl of homemade dumplings for lunch and an apple and watermelon for snacks. I have had 438 cal so far today and 96ounces of water. I'll have at least another 32 ounces tonight. I'm ramping up because apparently the SON of DDD Challenge is coming and it means drinking something like twice our body weight in water. Just kidding, but it'll be a lot. So, I'm ready. I'm on board and Allan doesn't scare me. No much anyway.
I went home at lunch an ran. Well, I tried to. I was able to do 8 min and then another 6min of running. I walked the rest for a total of 45min and 2miles. I have a 5K on the 14th and I'm ramping up for that. I could've walked more, but I know I needed to stretch, man I really can tell I've lost strength in my abs which affects my posture and therefor my running. I've lost flexibility in .....well everywhere. So I made myself stop and do some heavy duty long stretches. Wow I feel better. So I'm bummed in a way that I couldn't run more and go faster, but on the other hand I have not ran in 6 weeks. What did I expect?
As I was walking, I thought of these:
Ten Simple Ways to Tell It's Been Too Long Since You Worked Out
1) Your gym bag is buried under that pile of clothes that you WISH you could wear. You know the ones you keep trying on and they keep getting tighter.
2) The treadmill is so covered in dust you have an asthma attack before you get on the dang thing.
3) You can't remember how the program works on your exercise bike, hell, maybe you forgot you had one.
4) Your kids have taken your resistance bands and used them to torture their stuffed animals. Poor Elmo.
5) You forget to change into your oh so comfy running socks. DAMN it, blister.
6) Your daughter says, "Why are you wearing that clothes, Mommy?" As if she's never seen you in workout clothes before.
7) Your legs literally laugh as you try to make them take more than 10 steps and you wind up looking like a bow legged cowboy instead of the lithe athlete you envision.
8) The Sweat. Enough Said.
9) Your heart rate monitor won't pick up your heat beat, just because it's pissed you've been ignoring it.
10) The pimply faced kid at the gym tries to sell you a membership. AGAIN.
The Ninja over at Cooking It Off tagged me in a game where I'm supposed to answer these questions and then Ask 4 different questions of 4 different people. So here are the questions she asked and my answers.
1. What's your guilty pleasure food? Seriously. This is a hard question because I feel guilt and pleasure about soooo many foods. But, I guess in the context of something I can easily fit in my healthier lifestyle, I would say frozen yogurt. It is so good and makes me think I'm eating ice cream, but it is much healthier.
2. How often do you look at yourself in the mirror, be honest. Umm..I've never counted. Definitely in the morning and evening and every time I potty, which is a lot lately considering the water I'm chugging.
3. What habit bothers you the most? (think chewing with mouth open, blowing nose at the table, etc) I hate mouth open chewing and nose blowing at the table. I also loath people who answer their phone in the movie.
4. What is your favorite Christmas song? Oh. That's hard too because I LOVE Christmas music. I am not much ready for this subject, but I'll play along. Probably "White Christmas" and "Oh Holy Night."
And now it's my turn. Here are my questions:
1) If you could be any animal, what would you choose?
2) Name 1 thing you would NOT do, even if I payed you a million bucks?
3) Name one big news event that made an impact on you other than 9/11. Why and How did it impact you?
4) Where did you go or would you like to go on your honeymoon?
And Here are my 4 victims:
1) Allan
2) Patrick
3) Shane
4) Jack
And just in case Mr. Sh*t is too busy, I'm picking and extra person.
5) Alan
I picked all MEN because they very often do not get included in these silly games AND these 5 have a sense of humor. I like funny.
I'll post more later. You boys better play along, now.
I went home at lunch an ran. Well, I tried to. I was able to do 8 min and then another 6min of running. I walked the rest for a total of 45min and 2miles. I have a 5K on the 14th and I'm ramping up for that. I could've walked more, but I know I needed to stretch, man I really can tell I've lost strength in my abs which affects my posture and therefor my running. I've lost flexibility in .....well everywhere. So I made myself stop and do some heavy duty long stretches. Wow I feel better. So I'm bummed in a way that I couldn't run more and go faster, but on the other hand I have not ran in 6 weeks. What did I expect?
As I was walking, I thought of these:
Ten Simple Ways to Tell It's Been Too Long Since You Worked Out
1) Your gym bag is buried under that pile of clothes that you WISH you could wear. You know the ones you keep trying on and they keep getting tighter.
2) The treadmill is so covered in dust you have an asthma attack before you get on the dang thing.
3) You can't remember how the program works on your exercise bike, hell, maybe you forgot you had one.
4) Your kids have taken your resistance bands and used them to torture their stuffed animals. Poor Elmo.
5) You forget to change into your oh so comfy running socks. DAMN it, blister.
6) Your daughter says, "Why are you wearing that clothes, Mommy?" As if she's never seen you in workout clothes before.
7) Your legs literally laugh as you try to make them take more than 10 steps and you wind up looking like a bow legged cowboy instead of the lithe athlete you envision.
8) The Sweat. Enough Said.
9) Your heart rate monitor won't pick up your heat beat, just because it's pissed you've been ignoring it.
10) The pimply faced kid at the gym tries to sell you a membership. AGAIN.
The Ninja over at Cooking It Off tagged me in a game where I'm supposed to answer these questions and then Ask 4 different questions of 4 different people. So here are the questions she asked and my answers.
1. What's your guilty pleasure food? Seriously. This is a hard question because I feel guilt and pleasure about soooo many foods. But, I guess in the context of something I can easily fit in my healthier lifestyle, I would say frozen yogurt. It is so good and makes me think I'm eating ice cream, but it is much healthier.
2. How often do you look at yourself in the mirror, be honest. Umm..I've never counted. Definitely in the morning and evening and every time I potty, which is a lot lately considering the water I'm chugging.
3. What habit bothers you the most? (think chewing with mouth open, blowing nose at the table, etc) I hate mouth open chewing and nose blowing at the table. I also loath people who answer their phone in the movie.
4. What is your favorite Christmas song? Oh. That's hard too because I LOVE Christmas music. I am not much ready for this subject, but I'll play along. Probably "White Christmas" and "Oh Holy Night."
And now it's my turn. Here are my questions:
1) If you could be any animal, what would you choose?
2) Name 1 thing you would NOT do, even if I payed you a million bucks?
3) Name one big news event that made an impact on you other than 9/11. Why and How did it impact you?
4) Where did you go or would you like to go on your honeymoon?
And Here are my 4 victims:
1) Allan
2) Patrick
3) Shane
4) Jack
And just in case Mr. Sh*t is too busy, I'm picking and extra person.
5) Alan
I picked all MEN because they very often do not get included in these silly games AND these 5 have a sense of humor. I like funny.
I'll post more later. You boys better play along, now.
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Tuesday. Rainy and Cold....I love it!
Yesterday's post felt really good and I've been A-OK since. I really shook off whatever had me down. I'm feeling so much better. Today was busy as usual. It is that time of year for me when all hell breaks lose at the office. Today the weather turned rainy and cold and I suspect the phone will be ringing tomorrow. I love this weather actually, although since my weight loss I soooo much colder all the time.
Today was great food wise. I ate well and drank a ton of water. Consequently I spent a lot of time in the potty today. The upside is I get to spend those few moments thankfully alone in peace.
Here's the tally:
Breakfast: oatmeal muffin, yogurt, and an orange=282cal
Snack: apple=95
Lunch: baked sweet potato, green beans, mixed veggies=240cal
Snack: muffin and watermelon=152cal
Dinner: pork chop, green peas, tomato salad, roasted potatoes=437 cal
Total=1172
I even came home at lunch and rode my stationary, 7 miles. I felt great. My legs definitely felt it as they are still a little sore from the hilly walk on Sunday with the girls. It felt so good to sweat again. I wanted to do more, but the first day back is not the time to push too hard. I know what happens when I do that. BUT, tomorrow morning I am hitting the push ups and cardio. HERE I go. I'm back.
Tonight I packed up all the Halloween decorations. I got all my Thanksgiving stuff out. It felt good to get that out of the way. While I was at it, I put all the candy from the kids pumpkins into a big ziplock. I didn't eat any. Didn't even want that shit. Also, I passed up donuts and banana bread at work. PLUS dinner rolls at lunch and cookies and brownies. I can't believe the CRAP that comes in the door at my office. It only gets worse the closer it gets to Christmas. I am resolved to ignore all the crap that comes in.
I had plenty of calories to spare, but I'm full. It is after 9pm and that means it is time for bed. No need to eat if I'm not hungry. I did go to the grocery store. I found some fat free frozen yogurt Cherry with chocolate chip, 90 cals for 1/2 cup. I am looking forward to trying it, but I'm too cold and not hungry.
I had to pick up a few things to make the Chicken Enchilada casserole I saw on Tami's blog today. Sounds delish. I don't know if you read her blog, but she has some great recipes and she is a great writer. There are only a few recipe heavy blogs I'll read. For 1 thing, the last thing I need it to think MORE about is food. For another, I don't have a ton of time in my life to cook. I love to cook, but little time. Tami's blog has simple, but good recipes in nearly every post.
The other recipe heavy blog I enjoy is Biz's. She has some great food ideas and also is a great writer. She is always coming up with new ideas and posts great pics. A lot of recipe type blogs post fancy stuff I know my kids won't eat or fatty foods. After reading a lot of these sites I end up feeling well..... inadequate. I don't need any more of that in my life either. I like the practical, but yet interesting recipes both these ladies come up with AND they are healthy. Score!
I got some FABULOUS comments on my post yesterday. I appreciate them all. But, if you are like me you don't have the patience to read all the comments on someone else's post. Because some of them were full of great advice, I have highlighted them here.
Philat Couch Potato to 10K
Me? How do i keep my eye on the prize? Well...i come to blogland and read about what other people are struggling with and the successes they've had, but most of all i try and remember that i have 2 arms and 2 legs that all work, a roof over my head and 3 square meals a day and that I should be grateful that i can walk or run, throw a ball or any of the millions of things our amazing bodies allow us to do, and just who the hell do i think i am to complain about choosing between a bag of M&M's or eating an Apple, when there are millions of people who are starving, homeless, malnourished (or all of the above) in the world..
Tami at Nutmeg Notebook
I just want to continue to be healthy and wake up each morning with out any regrets about my choices from the day before. That is what motivates me to keep living healthy and being kind to my body.Health and peace of mind.
Christina at I'm Sick of Being as Big as a House
when I think I might want that extra helping of food or that candy or whatever, I stop and ask myself what I want more: A healthy lifestyle that will last a long time, or those few moments with that food? And when I hear myself making possible excuses, I also stop and ask myself "Is that something a fat person says?"
These all spoke to me yesterday. I have read all the comments from yesterday several times today and I believe it has helped me so much. But, the one that spoke to me the most was from my buddy Shane. Today when I was tempted to skip the workout at lunch, I thought of him and I just couldn't post AGAIN that I didn't do what I said I was going to. So I got myself out in the rain and cold and dragged myself home for that bike ride and BOY am I glad I did. Thank you Shane for kick in the ass I needed.
Shane at Losing it For the Family
I used to just LOVE seeing your posts about the C25K workout you just finished, the weight workouts, the TKD that you just did and how you impressed the class because you were a big gal that made the whole workout, sweaty and tired but finished! You are an INSPIRATION when you are that Doc! You not only help you, you brighten the weight loss blog community up by a thousand watts. Is it unfortunate that you had a gall bladder issue, yes. But you are now over that. You are ready to pick right back up where you left off. You are not this Doc, you are THAT Doc. Please for the love of God, be THAT Doc again, I am begging you!
I AM that Doc, Shane. I just needed to remember that.
What bloggers have inspired you lately?
Today was great food wise. I ate well and drank a ton of water. Consequently I spent a lot of time in the potty today. The upside is I get to spend those few moments thankfully alone in peace.
Here's the tally:
Breakfast: oatmeal muffin, yogurt, and an orange=282cal
Snack: apple=95
Lunch: baked sweet potato, green beans, mixed veggies=240cal
Snack: muffin and watermelon=152cal
Dinner: pork chop, green peas, tomato salad, roasted potatoes=437 cal
Total=1172
I even came home at lunch and rode my stationary, 7 miles. I felt great. My legs definitely felt it as they are still a little sore from the hilly walk on Sunday with the girls. It felt so good to sweat again. I wanted to do more, but the first day back is not the time to push too hard. I know what happens when I do that. BUT, tomorrow morning I am hitting the push ups and cardio. HERE I go. I'm back.
Tonight I packed up all the Halloween decorations. I got all my Thanksgiving stuff out. It felt good to get that out of the way. While I was at it, I put all the candy from the kids pumpkins into a big ziplock. I didn't eat any. Didn't even want that shit. Also, I passed up donuts and banana bread at work. PLUS dinner rolls at lunch and cookies and brownies. I can't believe the CRAP that comes in the door at my office. It only gets worse the closer it gets to Christmas. I am resolved to ignore all the crap that comes in.
I had plenty of calories to spare, but I'm full. It is after 9pm and that means it is time for bed. No need to eat if I'm not hungry. I did go to the grocery store. I found some fat free frozen yogurt Cherry with chocolate chip, 90 cals for 1/2 cup. I am looking forward to trying it, but I'm too cold and not hungry.
I had to pick up a few things to make the Chicken Enchilada casserole I saw on Tami's blog today. Sounds delish. I don't know if you read her blog, but she has some great recipes and she is a great writer. There are only a few recipe heavy blogs I'll read. For 1 thing, the last thing I need it to think MORE about is food. For another, I don't have a ton of time in my life to cook. I love to cook, but little time. Tami's blog has simple, but good recipes in nearly every post.
The other recipe heavy blog I enjoy is Biz's. She has some great food ideas and also is a great writer. She is always coming up with new ideas and posts great pics. A lot of recipe type blogs post fancy stuff I know my kids won't eat or fatty foods. After reading a lot of these sites I end up feeling well..... inadequate. I don't need any more of that in my life either. I like the practical, but yet interesting recipes both these ladies come up with AND they are healthy. Score!
I got some FABULOUS comments on my post yesterday. I appreciate them all. But, if you are like me you don't have the patience to read all the comments on someone else's post. Because some of them were full of great advice, I have highlighted them here.
Philat Couch Potato to 10K
Me? How do i keep my eye on the prize? Well...i come to blogland and read about what other people are struggling with and the successes they've had, but most of all i try and remember that i have 2 arms and 2 legs that all work, a roof over my head and 3 square meals a day and that I should be grateful that i can walk or run, throw a ball or any of the millions of things our amazing bodies allow us to do, and just who the hell do i think i am to complain about choosing between a bag of M&M's or eating an Apple, when there are millions of people who are starving, homeless, malnourished (or all of the above) in the world..
Tami at Nutmeg Notebook
I just want to continue to be healthy and wake up each morning with out any regrets about my choices from the day before. That is what motivates me to keep living healthy and being kind to my body.Health and peace of mind.
Christina at I'm Sick of Being as Big as a House
when I think I might want that extra helping of food or that candy or whatever, I stop and ask myself what I want more: A healthy lifestyle that will last a long time, or those few moments with that food? And when I hear myself making possible excuses, I also stop and ask myself "Is that something a fat person says?"
These all spoke to me yesterday. I have read all the comments from yesterday several times today and I believe it has helped me so much. But, the one that spoke to me the most was from my buddy Shane. Today when I was tempted to skip the workout at lunch, I thought of him and I just couldn't post AGAIN that I didn't do what I said I was going to. So I got myself out in the rain and cold and dragged myself home for that bike ride and BOY am I glad I did. Thank you Shane for kick in the ass I needed.
Shane at Losing it For the Family
I used to just LOVE seeing your posts about the C25K workout you just finished, the weight workouts, the TKD that you just did and how you impressed the class because you were a big gal that made the whole workout, sweaty and tired but finished! You are an INSPIRATION when you are that Doc! You not only help you, you brighten the weight loss blog community up by a thousand watts. Is it unfortunate that you had a gall bladder issue, yes. But you are now over that. You are ready to pick right back up where you left off. You are not this Doc, you are THAT Doc. Please for the love of God, be THAT Doc again, I am begging you!
I AM that Doc, Shane. I just needed to remember that.
What bloggers have inspired you lately?
Monday, November 1, 2010
Another Monday
Here I am and I survived the weekend, albeit not perfectly. I did much better yesterday. I did eat 2 bite sized butterfingers. I did well otherwise yesterday and came in under my calorie goal. I did get all my water in and I did a TON of walking through our hilly neighborhood with the girls. I chose not to weigh this morning. I have decided that my emotions are too up and down. I will wait a few days of being back on track and then I'll weigh. Today has been pretty good....for a Monday.
I completed my day well within the calories for the challenge and I drank more than enough water. Here's my food total:
breakfast: cheerios and milk=317cal
lunch: 5 tortilla chips with salsa, fajita meat chicken and beef, 1/2 tortilla=338cal
dinner: Chicken and dumplings left over from yesterday, watermelon=374 cal
snack: frozen yogurt=135cal
Total=1164 cal
I just want to say how inspired so many of you bloggers have made me over the holiday. So many of you set a goal to not eat candy and stuck to it. You should be proud of yourselves. That's why I joined this community to see people just like me succeed in the hopes that I will get it through my thick skull that I can be successful, too. I have a real problem with " what's the point?" attitude sometimes. Reading how well all of you are doing shows me in words and pictures THERE is the point.
Note to self: This pity party is OVER.
I don't know why I have gained weight, but I do know what I can do about it. I can stop being all mopey and defeatist. I can realized I am the only one stopping me. I can remind myself that I got down 42 pounds with very simple strategies. I can start working those strategies just like I've done before. AND I can stop fooling myself. I haven't done as much as I should. I haven't put in as much effort as I could.
If I don't believe in myself, who will?
If I don't make a change in my life, who will?
If I don't work on having a good attitude, who will?
No one can fix this for me. I can't wish this weight away. I am the only one who has the power to get where I want to go. And I MUST remember that ACHIEVING MY GOAL IS POSSIBLE. I have to approach this just like I do and did every other goal in my life. WHY is it that the most important thing I can do, being healthy, is the ONE thing I do the least?
My freshman year in college I got a C in calculus. That's right. I hate math and I'm not that great at it. I met with my guidance counselor that spring. When I told her that I planned to go to medical school, she told me I'd better make other plans. My grades weren't good enough. I'd better score very high on the MCAT. But, even then I might not get in.
I left there so angry. Who is SHE to tell me I can't do what I've planned my WHOLE life? Who the hell is she? She's not even a professor. She's basically a glorified secretary! I was incensed with rage. I was more determined that EVER to show her she was wrong.
The thing is that I KNEW I was put on this earth to be a doctor. I've known it since the age of 9. I knew as well as I knew the sky was blue and snow is cold. I. Just. Knew. And nothing anyone ever told me was going to stop me. I BELIEVED that I had a calling and that belief carried me through challenges. I knew that somehow, someway it would happen for me. No matter what it took.
Now remembering that, I find myself wondering why I don't have the same resolve to be healthy. I think part of it is that I have trouble believing I am capable of it. It doesn't come as naturally to me. But, just like math, I can learn it and I can succeed. I have to remember not to sell myself short.
I need to ask myself why I let that voice in my head tell me there is no use, you can't do it, you'll never be healthy and fit. If I wouldn't let my college counselor talk to me like that and persuade me from giving in on my goals, why do I let my own inner voice do it? Why do I so easily give in to doubt?
It's clear to me that maybe I don't want it as badly as I should. Are you frickin kidding me? I don't want to be around to see my kids grow up and their kids grow up ENOUGH? I don't want to see my son graduate from college? I don't want the pleasure of holding my great-grandchild for the first time? I don't want to have a healthy retirement so my husband and I can travel like we've always dreamed? HELL yes I do!
And that is what is at stake. LIVE or DIE. I have to remember that. LIVE OR DIE ONE CHOICE AT A TIME. That has to be my mantra. It is not optional. This is not something I can lose sight of so easily. When you make it about buying new jeans or shopping for new clothes, the importance gets lost in the day to day chaos that is my life. This isn't about fashion. This isn't about vanity. This isn't about fitting in. I'm not some freakin 16 year old girl who just wants to be liked anymore. I am A MOTHER, A WIFE, A DAUGHTER, A FRIEND. And I WANT TO LIVE.
I am 40 years old. I realize how unpredictable life can be. I realize there are no guarantees. That is why it is so important that I get healthy now. So I can LIVE my life on MY TERMS. Not on the terms set by my weight. Not with the limitations this weight puts on my life.
And so I will work on having the same resolve, the same determination for being healthy as I had about becoming a doctor. I will not forget the stakes in this game.
How about you? How do you keep your eye on the prize? How do you stay focused when you are just plain tired of this battle?
I completed my day well within the calories for the challenge and I drank more than enough water. Here's my food total:
breakfast: cheerios and milk=317cal
lunch: 5 tortilla chips with salsa, fajita meat chicken and beef, 1/2 tortilla=338cal
dinner: Chicken and dumplings left over from yesterday, watermelon=374 cal
snack: frozen yogurt=135cal
Total=1164 cal
I just want to say how inspired so many of you bloggers have made me over the holiday. So many of you set a goal to not eat candy and stuck to it. You should be proud of yourselves. That's why I joined this community to see people just like me succeed in the hopes that I will get it through my thick skull that I can be successful, too. I have a real problem with " what's the point?" attitude sometimes. Reading how well all of you are doing shows me in words and pictures THERE is the point.
Note to self: This pity party is OVER.
I don't know why I have gained weight, but I do know what I can do about it. I can stop being all mopey and defeatist. I can realized I am the only one stopping me. I can remind myself that I got down 42 pounds with very simple strategies. I can start working those strategies just like I've done before. AND I can stop fooling myself. I haven't done as much as I should. I haven't put in as much effort as I could.
If I don't believe in myself, who will?
If I don't make a change in my life, who will?
If I don't work on having a good attitude, who will?
No one can fix this for me. I can't wish this weight away. I am the only one who has the power to get where I want to go. And I MUST remember that ACHIEVING MY GOAL IS POSSIBLE. I have to approach this just like I do and did every other goal in my life. WHY is it that the most important thing I can do, being healthy, is the ONE thing I do the least?
My freshman year in college I got a C in calculus. That's right. I hate math and I'm not that great at it. I met with my guidance counselor that spring. When I told her that I planned to go to medical school, she told me I'd better make other plans. My grades weren't good enough. I'd better score very high on the MCAT. But, even then I might not get in.
I left there so angry. Who is SHE to tell me I can't do what I've planned my WHOLE life? Who the hell is she? She's not even a professor. She's basically a glorified secretary! I was incensed with rage. I was more determined that EVER to show her she was wrong.
The thing is that I KNEW I was put on this earth to be a doctor. I've known it since the age of 9. I knew as well as I knew the sky was blue and snow is cold. I. Just. Knew. And nothing anyone ever told me was going to stop me. I BELIEVED that I had a calling and that belief carried me through challenges. I knew that somehow, someway it would happen for me. No matter what it took.
Now remembering that, I find myself wondering why I don't have the same resolve to be healthy. I think part of it is that I have trouble believing I am capable of it. It doesn't come as naturally to me. But, just like math, I can learn it and I can succeed. I have to remember not to sell myself short.
I need to ask myself why I let that voice in my head tell me there is no use, you can't do it, you'll never be healthy and fit. If I wouldn't let my college counselor talk to me like that and persuade me from giving in on my goals, why do I let my own inner voice do it? Why do I so easily give in to doubt?
It's clear to me that maybe I don't want it as badly as I should. Are you frickin kidding me? I don't want to be around to see my kids grow up and their kids grow up ENOUGH? I don't want to see my son graduate from college? I don't want the pleasure of holding my great-grandchild for the first time? I don't want to have a healthy retirement so my husband and I can travel like we've always dreamed? HELL yes I do!
And that is what is at stake. LIVE or DIE. I have to remember that. LIVE OR DIE ONE CHOICE AT A TIME. That has to be my mantra. It is not optional. This is not something I can lose sight of so easily. When you make it about buying new jeans or shopping for new clothes, the importance gets lost in the day to day chaos that is my life. This isn't about fashion. This isn't about vanity. This isn't about fitting in. I'm not some freakin 16 year old girl who just wants to be liked anymore. I am A MOTHER, A WIFE, A DAUGHTER, A FRIEND. And I WANT TO LIVE.
I am 40 years old. I realize how unpredictable life can be. I realize there are no guarantees. That is why it is so important that I get healthy now. So I can LIVE my life on MY TERMS. Not on the terms set by my weight. Not with the limitations this weight puts on my life.
And so I will work on having the same resolve, the same determination for being healthy as I had about becoming a doctor. I will not forget the stakes in this game.
How about you? How do you keep your eye on the prize? How do you stay focused when you are just plain tired of this battle?
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