Negative ideas and attitudes are a habit for me. I'm working very hard to try to catch them the minute they start and then turn them into positive thoughts. I'm hoping someday soon I can call myself a genuine "glass half-full" person, but right now it takes effort. Not that I'm an unhappy person. On the contrary, I love me life. I love my family, my friends, my job, my home. I enjoy my life and I spend most of my day happy and smiling. BUT, it's the thought pattern in my head I have to work on. Inside, I'm often plagued with "what ifs" and "if onlys". These thoughts just detract from all the things I'm thankful for.
This morning as I was driving my kid to football practice, there was a whole host of thoughts running through my brain, most of which were negative and grumpy, "I'm tired. My back hurts. I don't want to go to the gym. I wish I could just get a break. I'm too fat. Why do I have to work so hard to lose weight when other people are just thin?" And then I just.......stopped. I caught myself. I gave myself an inner shake of the shoulders and told myself to stop and turn it around. I began to thing of positive things in my life right now. And here is a list of what I came up with.
On the bright side...............
- I tried on pair of dress slacks, very cute gray ones I bought on sale a while back, that I wasn't able to come close to buttoning or zipping a couple of months ago. Now I can do both, although it is still a little snug. A few more pounds and they'll look great, just in time for cooler weather.
- My new size large lab coat is already getting too loose.
- I can kick way over my head now.
- I can do those 60 crunches in TKD class without much effort.
- My kids are all healthy and doing well in school.
- I can wrap one of the small bath towels at the gym all the way around me now. Doesn't take 2 anymore and I'm not in danger of flashing everyone.
- I'm lucky that I can afford a membership at a nice gym with helpful people where I feel comfortable working out.
- I had a nice dry bed to sleep in last night as it was storming and pouring down rain.
- It RAINED!
- Only 40 days to my cruise.
- My son played all 4 quarters in his football game last night on the d-line. He's one of the shorter and smaller kids on the line and he was the only one to get through the line nearly every play. Almost made a sack!
- I'm close to learning all my material for the next TKD test. Now I just have to perfect it before December when I can get my purple belt.
- When a lot of people have given up and quit TKD that started with me, I have not. I'm half-way to my black belt.
- My husband continues to be supportive of my efforts at weight loss and exercise.
This week I've gone back to a no carb way of eating. Every once and a while when my weight loss slows or stalls, I try this and it usually jump starts my weight loss. Yesterday I lost a pound and I'm on my way back to where I was. I'm tired of losing and regaining the same 2-3 pounds that I've been doing lately. That's not getting me where I want to be. I am taking control and I've been going back and reading my old posts to remind myself where I've been and how I got here. I still believe that motivation doesn't just happen. You don't just wake up one day and suddenly you can do it. It takes work and focus.
I wonder how all of you manage your "down times" or your negative self talk. Do you struggle with it as I do? Do you follow a low carb or no carb diet? What do you do when you hit a plateau? How do you keep your motivation going?
And...............Go Rangers! Game 4 tonight!