So the weekend went by so fast. The boys came home from camp which means I spent hours washing nasty dirty camp clothes and cooking for them because they wanted "real food" after a week in a tent. I didn't get much done for myself this weekend and I am tired. Add to that the fact that I woke up with a migraine today and you will understand my less than perky attitude.
Friday night I took my Mom out for a movie. We saw Super 8 and it was awesome! I highly recommend that one! We went to see Mr. Popper's Penguins yesterday and it was a hit with the kids. I thought is was cute and Jim Carey wasn't too annoying for a change.
Over the weekend we booked a cruise for Thanksgiving week. I have mixed feelings. First I am excited. I've never been on a cruise and I think it will be lots of fun. However, it was something we had planned to do for my cousin (the one who died in March) and his 40th which would have been last month. I felt extremely guilty about us going without him and although I know it is irrational, as grief often is, I had a good long cry. We decided on Thanksgiving as the kids are out of school that week and we figure the holidays will suck this year, being the first one after my cousin's death. (For those of you who don't know my cousin was a brother to me. We grew up living next door to each other and we were only 16mo apart in age. It was and still is a devastating loss.) Grief is a process. I'm working my way through it as best I can.
I plan to use the cruise as more motivation for weight loss and after my weight today I need it. I'm up 2 pounds and I know it stems from my total fail this week which resulted in water retention and other bathroom issues I shall not discuss in detail. I don't think the gain is "real" but it is there and it makes me unhappy. But, it isn't the first time in this long journey I've had a gain. I always get so bitter that it is so easy for me to gain. Seriously it is nutso. But, that's my body. I'm stuck with it. And so I'm back on track this morning despite my bad and sour Monday attitude.
Sometimes things are not all great and wonderful and sunshine and happiness. Sometimes they are just blah and plain and get through the day as best you can. That's today for me. Add to that the migraine I woke up with and I'm down right negative. I have to work out with my trainer today. Yippee. Oh how I want to cancel. But I will not.
June Boom Challenge is going well. I have worked out every day until this weekend when my workouts were marginal and housework oriented. But before that I have worked out, seriously worked out, every day, some days twice. So, despite the fact that the scale is a butthead as my 5 year old would say, I feel pretty decent about my efforts this week on this challenge.
This week I did better on the small change challenge and I did track my water intake and increase it a bit. I needed to. It is freaking hot here in Texas and it is not ending anytime soon. So hydrate, I will.
And that's it for me today. I have no words of wisdom or inspiration to impart today other than I will keep on going and will not quit and will try to keep my goals in focus. Hope you all are doing the same......or better!
This blog is an accounting of my personal journey to find fitness. All the content on this blog should be read as a biographical piece of literature, not a medical resource. I am a physician, but I am in no way giving medical advice or establishing doctor patient relationships with my readers. I am simply keeping a diary. If you are starting a diet or exercise program or require medical evaluation or advice, please see your own family physician.