Just Pray

Had a pretty hard weekend. Saturday spent the day with a terrible migraine, likely from the weather change. Didn't do much. Then, yesterday I got a call a little before 7am, new time, that my uncle was in ICU and they didn't expect him to make it. I called Nanny to watch the kids since husband flew out around 7am for North Carolina and his meeting. Called my mom and she and I drove up to Oklahoma. We barely made it there before he coded for the last time. I was there for the last code and when I saw what bad shape he was in and his heart rhythm I knew he wouldn't survive another few hours to wait for his son. I talked to my Aunt and she agreed to stop the code. He was gone a few minutes later.  Most of the family made it there, but one of his sons didn't.  We stayed there most of the day and drove back yesterday evening. His death was very unexpected. He was 64, but pretty healthy. We are all in shock. I spent pretty much every summer of my childhood with him and his wife. He really was a father figure for me and without his influence, I would not have had much of a positive male role model. He was a very good man. Today I'm tired and sad and I still have a migraine, but I'm surviving here at work. Not really thinking much about diet or exercise. Just trying to get through the day.  This is doubly hard since my cousin died a year ago this week. You can read about that here if you want to. Sorry but I can't think straight enough to figure out what else to post. Wish I I had some words of wisdom. Wish I could care about how many calories I've eaten, but I just don't at this moment. Actually I haven't really eaten today. Any way, I'll try to post more later. If you are so inclined, please pray for me and my family.