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Monday, March 12, 2012

Just Pray

Had a pretty hard weekend. Saturday spent the day with a terrible migraine, likely from the weather change. Didn't do much. Then, yesterday I got a call a little before 7am, new time, that my uncle was in ICU and they didn't expect him to make it. I called Nanny to watch the kids since husband flew out around 7am for North Carolina and his meeting. Called my mom and she and I drove up to Oklahoma. We barely made it there before he coded for the last time. I was there for the last code and when I saw what bad shape he was in and his heart rhythm I knew he wouldn't survive another few hours to wait for his son. I talked to my Aunt and she agreed to stop the code. He was gone a few minutes later.  Most of the family made it there, but one of his sons didn't.  We stayed there most of the day and drove back yesterday evening. His death was very unexpected. He was 64, but pretty healthy. We are all in shock. I spent pretty much every summer of my childhood with him and his wife. He really was a father figure for me and without his influence, I would not have had much of a positive male role model. He was a very good man. Today I'm tired and sad and I still have a migraine, but I'm surviving here at work. Not really thinking much about diet or exercise. Just trying to get through the day.  This is doubly hard since my cousin died a year ago this week. You can read about that here if you want to. Sorry but I can't think straight enough to figure out what else to post. Wish I I had some words of wisdom. Wish I could care about how many calories I've eaten, but I just don't at this moment. Actually I haven't really eaten today. Any way, I'll try to post more later. If you are so inclined, please pray for me and my family.

22 comments:

  1. Prayers definitely going out. Hang in. *hugs*

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  2. My favorite uncle was a Robert, too - and he died unexpectedly like that...I am so sorry for you, I know how awful you are feeling right now. Big hugs and comforting thought are headed your way.

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  3. So sorry for your loss of such a significant person in your life. It sounds as though you were so fortunate to have had him as a father figure and role model. Healing thoughts sent your way. Take care.

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    1. Thanks, Jane. Yes I was very fortunate considering my relationship, or lack there of, with my father.

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  4. So sorry for your loss. Prayers to you and your family.

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  5. I can only imagine your pain. So sorry to hear about your loss. In these times, we just have to get through. Everything else will wait. Take care.

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  6. So sorry to hear about the death in the fam. I hope that you guys can rely on each other and build stronger family bonds over it. Prayers and lovely thoughts.

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  7. I'm so sorry for your loss! "hugs"

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  8. You and your family will be in my prayers. I'm sorry this is such a hard week. Maybe you can use the anniversary to remember all the best things about your cousin.

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  9. Yis'ga'dal v'yis'kadash sh'may ra'bbo, b'olmo dee'vro chir'usay v'yamlich malchu'say, b'chayaychon uv'yomay'chon uv'chayay d'chol bais Yisroel, ba'agolo u'viz'man koriv; v'imru Omein.
    Y'hay shmay rabbo m'vorach l'olam ul'olmay olmayo.
    Yisborach v'yishtabach v'yispoar v'yisromam v'yismasay, v'yishador v'yis'aleh v'yisalal, shmay d'kudsho, brich hu, l'aylo min kl birchoso v'sheeroso, tush'bechoso v'nechemoso, da,ameeran b'olmo; vimru Omein.
    Y'hay shlomo rabbo min sh'mayo, v'chayim alaynu v'al kol Yisroel; v'imru Omein.
    Oseh sholom bimromov, hu ya'aseh sholom olaynu, v'al kol yisroel; vimru Omein.

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  10. I'm sorry to hear that, Doc. I'll keep you guys in my prayers. :(

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  11. So sorry for your loss. This has been a VERY HARD week for you. You and your family are in our prayers. God Bless.

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  12. I am so sorry for your loss! Don't worry about food/calories or exercise for now - when I die I hope that people say that I was kind, generous and thoughtful, not about how many calories I ate in the day.

    SENDING HUGE hugs your way!! Biz

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  13. I wanted to offer my condolences. Losing loved ones is the worst thing, the WORST thing, in life. I'm really sorry you lost someone so dear who wasn't even that old (which is what shocks us sometimes, how soon it can come).

    God bless, dear.

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  14. Thinking about you and the grief from losing a father figure on the anniversary of your cousin-brother's death. Let your grief be what it must. Collapse into the love of your family and friends.
    Jan

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  15. I am so sorry for your loss Ann. Prayers for you and your family, may God wrap you in love and grant you peace.

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  16. Doc, so very sorry to hear about this. That was a beautiful tribute - he obviously was very important to you. I'm going to contact my uncles this week. Both are in their 60s. Thanks.

    Oh, and count your calories. ;-)

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  17. Add my hugs and condolences to the others...
    Bless your sweet heart!

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