I'm Still Here......

I'm here. I'm really tired this week. Hubby out of town. I had a migraine most of the week. Luckily today it is gone. Yea!  Having trouble with motivation, especially yesterday but I find that is much worse when I'm tired. Today is a bit better with the headache improved.

I weighed in on Monday and I had lost 2 pounds. My efforts at tracking through the weekend paid off. I did work out on Saturday with my stationery bike and some stretching. Sunday I didn't do much as that's when the migraine hit. I spent a good portion of that day laying around and hoping my head would just explode and relieve some of the pressure.

Monday was a long day. I worked, then picked up my son at lunch and took him to the doctor. Worked some more and then went to Boy Scouts with him. I did a gillion physicals for his troop and we didn't get home until nearly 10pm. Needless to say About 100 pre-teen and teen age boys didn't help that headache. Tuesday I was sooooooo tired. Work was busy and I ran late so I missed my noon TKD class which only made me grumpier. But, I finished in time to make the 5:40pm class after work. OOPs, I forgot my belt. DANG IT. Can't go to class without it. Luckily I had just enough time to run home, get the belt and make class. I was YAWNING during class, but I made it through and the workout probably helped the headache.

Yesterday was hectic. I got the kids to school and had to run a few errands at lunch. After work I had to run home and pick up my son for a special meeting for him. He advances to Life scout on Monday at Court Of Honor. For those of you who don't know that's the rank just before Eagle. It's basically 6 months to a year now until Eagle and he's very excited. He was also nominated for the Scout Honor Society Order of the Arrow. This is wonderful news, but we just found out this week and it means a camping trip this weekend. He already had a band trip this weekend and hubby doesn't get home until late Friday. We spent yesterday trying to figure a way to do both and then came to the conclusion we can't. Luckily there is another ceremony/camping trip for the OA in August and he'll be inducted into it then.

I didn't drink enough water yesterday. I also didn't eat enough protein. Those 2 mistakes led to my making a couple of bad choices last night. I went over my calories by a bit. I woke up this morning and I was mad at myself. But, then I realized that I can't undo it. I can only move forward. So I ate a good breakfast and I'm moving on. I went to TKD class again today and it was a hard workout because there were only 3 of us in class. That means I had 1 to 1 time with the instructor which is awesome but also means I got no rest time. I did some speed drills with low to high round house kicks. I hit the bag a little off with one kick and my left foot is a little sore. My fault because I forgot to wear my shin and instep guards. Dufus. Thank God for ibuprofen.

Tonight I have to do the single mom thing again and get a little work finished. I found out we can get our taxes all done as the business taxes are finished. We always have to file an extension because of our complicated corporation blah blah blah.  Anyhoo.....the best news is I'm off tomorrow. I'm returning to taking Fridays off. I used to do this regularly. I stopped for a while but now I am going back to it. During the summer I have to pay Nanny a LOT of overtime. My day off avoid this and also allows me some extra time with the kids. They are growing up so very fast and I feel like I'm missing so much of it. I haven't been up at their school nearly as much this year even though I take off when something special is happening. I don't get to just drop in and do lunch with them. Of course that's because lunch is at 10:30 and 11:00am! ANYWAY...I have a super-secret girl day scheduled with a friend for movie and shopping and I'm super happy psyched out.

My goal for this weekend is to track like last week. Work out Friday and Saturday and stay within my calorie goal. It's really not too lofty of goals. I'm increasing my cardio next week I return to am cardio and twice a day work outs when possible. I will be testing for brown belt on June 2nd and.....yes my friends ....it's never to early to start praying..ha ha!  It's never too early to prepare. I'm in better shape and stronger but I weigh more than I did at my last test. That makes me angry, but determined.  I've reminded myself that my goals are about more than just the scale and that I am so far from where I was. I am strong and proud.  After all, brown belt is only 2 belts from black!  Who would've thought I would be even making it through one class of TKD 2 years ago let alone 2 belts from black!!!

You can do this! You have to believe. You have to keep going no matter what gets in your way. I've had health problems and steroid weight gain. I've dealt with the death of one of the most important people in my life. I've battled many challenges and I've not quit. I won't. There are no excuses. The only thing keeping me from my goals is me. I have to keep reminding myself of that.

What about you?  Is there something you are letting in your way? How are you going to get around it? What's holding you back?