Twilight Zone and Hot 100 update

Good Morning ALL!

Well, yesterday was a great day. Any day where you only work 1/2 is a great day, right?  So we had our Christmas Party for work and gift exchange. It was a night lunch. I had a fabulous greek salad, mostly veggies with 4 olives and very little dressing. Along with that I had a chicken shish-k-bob which had veggies and 3 small chunks of chicken and 1/2 a pita.  I drank a vanilla vodka w/ diet coke and my calories at lunch were 459.  As a surprise we let the employees have the rest of the day off early so they could shop since it was payday.

I left work and went to the mall. Three hours of shopping, just me and 5 million others. But, since I'm almost done with Christmas it was a leisurely stroll and by stroll I mean a LOT of walking.  Shoulda worn different shoes. I had my cute boots with the heels on and ouch my feet and legs were cramping by the time I got home.  I had a great time. Picked up a few things for myself.  Two pairs of too cute shoes. I'll take pics and share for my fellow Shoe connoisseurs. I KNOW you're out there.

Here's where the weird part happened.

So I go to Nordstrom's because I have a gift certificate left from last year. Thought I'd by a few new clothes. I go in and head to the Woman's department where I've always shopped. I look at the sales rack. There are litterally no clothes that will fit me except 1 pair of size 14 jeans in a weird purple color. That's a NO. I look at the non-sale racks.  That's cute-2x.  Oh I like that sweater-3x. Then- 2x, 1x, 3x, 24, 22, 20....I realize I probably shouldn't even be in this section anymore. Then I realize I have absolutely NO idea where I'm supposed to shop. I mean, where are the clothes for normal people?

And by normal I mean, size 14 for 40yr old women, not the 16 yr old teenies. So I wander around and this sales lady comes up to me and she's like, "Can I help you find something, you look lost."  And I say, "I think I am." I explained my issue and she directed me to an area where there were some cute things. I looked and shopped and literally everything seemed too small to me, even though they were my size. I tried some stuff on I liked ok, but I felt so weird I gave up. I did find a cute leather jacket in a 0X. WTF is a 0X? But it fits and it was less than 50 bucks.

Then I went to look at shoes. Shoes should be safe, right? So the sales guy, luckily a very styled gay dude (because they ALWAYS help you find the best shoes), comes up and asks if I need help. I tell him I'm looking for some cute black heels or just something funky and fun. He asks my size, I tell him, "a 8 1/2-9".  He says, "Oh Honey, you're tiny. That's way too big." WTF? Tiny? WTF? So he brings out these 8s and 7 and 1/2s. WTF? They fit, but as it turned out I didn't like them on me. Maybe it was my being completely freaked out by not knowing myself anymore.  I did end up with 2 pair of shoes at Dillard's, one is an 8, one an 8 and 1/2, but sales chick said those run small. (???)

The entire experience has me weired out and happy at the same time. THEN this morning I opened a pakage from Lane Bryant and I had ordered these cute gray cargo pants from them on clearance in a size 14. I put them on and thought, "Huh. I like them a lot, but are they too big?" The more the day wears on I realize they ARE too big, even for baggy cargo pants.  Don't get me wrong. It's awesome. But it is also disconcerting to FEEL like I am fatter than I actually am. To be WEARING a SIZE 14 that seems REALLY small compared to what I'm used to and THEY ARE TOO BIG. (I was going to post a pic, but it was icky.)

Does anyone else understand what I'm saying? I mean it is super exciting and I am really proud and happy. But, I feel so strange. I have no idea where to go buy clothes now. I need to re-measure. It's been about a month. I cannot believe it since I haven't lost that many more pounds.(which is an entirely different subject I'll bitch about later.)

ANYWAY:
SSDDDYYSSDDS or whatever the hell Allan's challenge is now is going fine although the I did go over by 171 cals yesterday. Thank you vodka. But, for the week I'm ok. Tonight I am getting a datenight with hubbie for our anniversary. That means SALAD and very little cals for lunch today so I can save up for tonight. Fluids are A-OK and on target. Scale says I'm down 1 pound.  I was shocked to see in black and white on his blog yesterday that I can reach my goal by May. That's only 5 months away and even if it takes DOUBLE that, I'll be at goal by this time next year. Gasp. Grin.

Hot 100:
Last week people told me I need to set new goals since I've pretty much done them all except the weight. So I'm adding the goal of a morning cardio session 5 days a week from now till the end of the challenge. I'm still working on the weight goal of 199 and I am still what feels like a lot, but is only 5 pounds away.

So, I hope everyone enjoys their weekend and BE GOOD! I mean it! And, let me know if your new size freaks anyone else out or am I just in need of "help"?

Hot 100 Update

Here we are. Another Friday. Geez. Where does all the time go? I remember my grandmother telling me when I was little that time went faster and faster the older you got. I always thought she was nutso. I'm sorry Grandma. You were totally right!

Goals:
1) Be 199 pounds:  So far this week I haven't seen the scale move. I don't get that. But then my exercise hasn't been there. So I'm still 5 pounds from this goal. I'm not giving up. I'm still in Allan's challenge and still doing just fine with it.
2) Be a size 14: See my post from yesterday!

3) Get my yellow belt: Done. See this post if you didn't see it the first time.

4) Run a 5K:  With the illness and all I didn't get to run it, but I did walk/jog one last month. I am restarting the C25K and plan on trying again after the holidays.  You can see this post to read about it.

So that's about it for the update. I have a busy day and weekend ahead. I'll try to check in and post when I can. I hope you all have a super Friday. Drink your water! Sorry for all the links in this post, but I know not everyone has time to read everyday. These were highlights in the last month that I am very proud of.  Sometimes you gotta brag.

Do you brag when you should? Do you celebrate your accomplishments? Do you feel comfortable succeeding? I know for a long time I didn't. I'm learning!

I'm so pooped and Hot 100 update

Well, I was off work today, but worked harder than I would have if I had gone in. Day started with me on the computer by 6am doing catchup work from yesterday. Then, got the kids up and off to school. Came home put some stuff out for donation, mostly clothes from my closet which is now getting pretty bare and I love it.

After that, went to the office to deliver poinsettias.  Then to Chick-fil-A to pick up lunch for my daughter. I didn't eat any. Then to her school. Had lunch with a bunch of first graders then read to the class. Then, helped the kids edit their stories they've been writing. Then ran home, finished up the decorating and back to the school for my daughter's Christmas Party.

After that, I rushed over to pick up my son's cake and then to pick up him and his friends after school. Came home to finish up the prep for dinner. Son decided he wanted to make individual pizzas. Luckily, Nanny had time to get the dough and sauce ready for me so all I had to do was chop the ingredients and roll the dough out. I plan a veggie pizza for me and I deserve it because I am starved. I haven't had all my water yet, but I'll have some at the movie.

Yep. Not done yet. I'll be taking the kids to the movie at 8pm. Then back here and I'll likely crash while 5 silly pre-teen and teen boys stay up all night and play video games and such.  So no official work out today, but I've done MAJOR house work and I am pooped already.

Speaking of poop. Problem solved. Things are much better and I'm back down one of the pounds I had gained. I wish someone would explain to me why the math Allan is always talking about sometimes doesn't work out for me. Oh well.

I've had 540 calories so far today. I do not plan anything to eat at the theater, only a drink, likely just water. It's a dinner theater so they have food there. Really good food. They have a great house salad so if I decide to eat something I can have that, dressing on the side of course.

My Hot 100 goals:
1) Be 199 pounds-getting closer, at least I was prior to the mystery gain. I was 204.5 on Sunday.  That's 5.5 pounds and I think I can do it.
2)Be a size 14: I wore my lane bryant size 14 jeans yesterday, they have room. Now, I need to try somewhere else.
3) Get my yellow belt- done!
4) Run a 5K- well, I did walk/jog one a couple of weeks ago. I am still working on being able to run the whole thing.

Over all, things are going well and I am in the midst of a crazy wild busy weekend. I plan to post tomorrow and let you know I survived the sleep over. If you don't hear from me by Monday, call the FBI I may have been slaughtered by 13 year olds.  Hope you all have a FAB weekend!

Wish me luck! AND Hot 100 Update.

I am so glad it is Friday! Woo hoo! Despite the fact that my ass hurts. That's right. You heard me. My. Ass. Hurts.  I've been practicing and working hard on my TKD for the test tonight. All this kicking and jumping and what not has made my butt sore and my legs sore.

Yesterday, I got up and did about 20 minutes of practice. Believe me it is a workout. I sweat and my HR gets up pretty damn quickly.  Breakfast was an egg white omelet with Canadian back ham(? according to one commenter from up north) and cheese. For lunch I had 1 cup of pasta left over from a couple days ago dinner. And salad. Dinner was Chicken enchilada casserole and salad and a 1/2 cup black eyed peas. I was pleasantly surprised that my girls ate it up, for a change.   Total calories for yesterday was 1245.  I drank 6, yes SIX, 32 oz glasses of water, plus my coffee in the am. I cannot believe how much I love my water. I think I am just more in tune with my body and when I need to be drinking now. 

I had TKD class yesterday. An hour of hard work. For warm up we did: jogging in place, jumping jacks, a million stretches, kicks, punches, 30 push ups, and....are you ready?......150 crunches. You heard me. That was the warm up. No wonder I was a wheezy mess. I had to puff a lot yesterday as my asthma was a problem.  Then, I got lucky as the other white belt in my class wasn't there. One on one teaching. Sounds awesome and it was, BUT it means there was no down time for me. No waiting my turn. I did a zillion kicks.  I did my form many times. Now you know why my ass hurts.

Then last night, my kids wanted to see my stuff. They were quizzing me, they wanted to practice so I did about 30 MORE minutes of practice. I got up this morning and I had planned on running. BUT....I have the test tonight at 7:30 and I was worried that if I ran my legs would be too tired to do well. Instead I did about 15 minutes of practice and review.  I'll run in the morning. Assuming my ass cooperates.

To be honest, I'm a little nervous about tonight. Not because I'm afraid of messing up. I know the material. Not because I'm afraid of not being able to finish, I know I can. But, I'm having a bit of that old "fat-girl" fear. I'll be the only adult white belt testing. I'll be with a lot of little kids. That means a lot of parents watching and video taping and STARING at the fat lady in the giant white belt. Sigh. On the other hand....I'll be doing shit they can't and haven't had the guts to try to do, so FUCK THEM, right?

Plus....I think I might get to break my first board. AND...I'll make one of my Hot 100 goals. And, my BFF and I have always had the motto, "embarrassment is the spice of life."  It's fun to be silly. It's fun to GO FOR IT. I've always believed it and I don't really care what other people think.  They can't criticize me if they don't have the balls to do it too. So over all, I'm excited about tonight.

Hot 100 Update:
1) Be 199 pounds:  Thanks to all the water and tracking of calories and exercise, I've lost 2 pounds. I am 205. That's the lowest weight yet. And that means only 6 more pounds to meet this goal. I know I can do it.

2)  Be a size 14, in a "real" store. Well, I measured earlier in the week and I am continuing to lose inches. I haven't tried this yet, but I can comfortably wear my 16s from Kohl's. And my 14 jeans from Lane Bryant I'm wearing today and there is plenty of room.  And I wore my new size 14 sweater the other day to work. I'm wearing my T shirt from my first 5K last weekend and it is a....get ready for it....  LARGE. A LARGE! Hell yeah! I hope to make this one, I'm on my way.

3) Get my yellow belt: SEE ABOVE. Wish me luck tonight and pictures will be posted either tonight or tomorrow.

4) Run a 5K:  SINCE I'm wearing the T-shirt today, you'll note I actually did one. A real race. But, I didn't run the whole thing. My running took a step backwards with the whole, "I had an organ removed" thingy. But, I did walk/jog it and I finished AND I wasn't the last one across the finish line. I'm working to increase my running so I can get to the point I can run the whole time.  But, I'm very proud I had the balls to enter and do a race.... finally.

How're your goals coming along? Are you making REAL progress?  What do you need to DO to get those goals DONE???

Hot 100 Update

Well, my week sucked, but then I did have an organ removed. I actually tracked my calories today even with my drug induced stupor. I've had around 300 cals so far. I'm having pasta for dinner, so at least I've saved room. If I can do it so can you. Did you?  I see a lot of posts where people are rocking this challenge, but a lot where the effort isn't all there yet. We need to buckle down now. Time stands still for none of us. 100 days isn't that long and they are whizzing by!

My goals are:
1. Be under 199 by the end of the challenge: Well since the surgery I've gained and I weigh 216. Ass hole scale!  But, a lot of this is sodium as I am dehydrated and I've been trying to drink water. So glad water doesn't taste like an old penny anymore.
2. Run a 5K-this I will do. My BFF and I are registering for one this weekend and it is Nov 14th, so I'll be able to do it by then. Still super de duper sore from surgery. Just walking to the BR is a work out right now.
3.  Wear a size 12 jeans- See #1, not back on the track there yet.
4.Get my yellow belt in TKD-umm...yeah no class right now. Maybe next Thursday, but we'll see how it goes. May be another week before I can even think about going there.
5. Do the 100 push ups and 200 sit ups 3 times a week: Ha ha ha ha ha ha.  Nope.

I'm most depressed about the weight gain. I was 209 a few weeks ago. Now I'm 216 and I'm pissed. I know most of it isn't "real weight" because I haven't pooped in 3 days. And I am really dehydrated. At least I plan to try to eat some veggies at dinner tonight. I still can't eat meat and that means, carbs. My body is so sensitive to them and I know that's a problem. But, I have to survive and heal now. I hate sounding like a whiny excuse puke mouth. Sigh. 

Well, I'll just keep keeping on. What else can I do?  See ya'll tomorrow.